In remarks published by Radar Online, Harry said that being in Canada, away from that pressure, brought on something he had never experienced before. “It was as if I needed stress in order to get the adrenaline to make my brain function because I became useless around the house,” he said, adding that he “slipped into depression for about two weeks” and felt unable to function without adrenaline.
That account is more striking than the usual royal soap. What Harry describes is not just distress, but a system of coping that seems to have mistaken constant pressure for normality. If stress had become the thing keeping him operational, then relief would not have felt like relief at all.
According to Radar Online, Harry said the move was meant “to get some space away from everything just to be able to think.” The outlet also said he linked that period to his longer struggle with the death of his mother, Princess Diana. Harry said that for 15 to 20 years, when asked if he was OK, he answered, “I’m fine,” while living with “numbness” and “emotional shutdown.”
Radar also reported that Harry spoke about guilt attached to happiness, saying he once felt “disloyal” for being “joyful” without his mother. “I felt like I had to be sad and I had to be emotionally numb in order to prove to her that I missed her,” he said. “But the reality is... she just wanted me to be happy.”
Radar Online did not make clear in the excerpt where Harry originally made the remarks. Still, the substance is plain enough: once the rush fell away, he says, so did the mechanism he had been using to get through daily life.
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